Tuesday, August 7, 2012

Final interview

Assalamualaikum....

Hari ni 8/8/2012. Genaplah 25 thn 7 bulan usiaku. Alhamdulillah...masih diberi peluang utk hidup. Hari ni jugak ade final interview kat sirim. Alhamdulillah dah lepas peringkat pertama. Semoga Allah mudahkan urusan temudugaku nanti. Amik berkat bulan ramadhan. InsyaAllah...

Hari ni amik cuti sbb nk g interview tu. oh btw, skrg sy keje kat kedai emas plak. dah masuk sebulan. so far boleh la sket2. blum pandai sgt lg. btul la kate bos, lmbt nk pandai keje ni. xmcm jual roti, org amik roti, pastu byr. ni nk kene pandai bodek2 customer sket, puji2 sket which i'm not very good at it. but i'll try. tp dah kalau org xnk beli xkan nk paksa pulakkan. i'm not the type yg suka paksa2 org. mmg xde bakat la dlm bodek membodek ni. that's why i really hope and pray that i'll get the job at sirim. Ya Allah...sesungguhnya Engkau Maha Mengetahui apa yg terbaik bagiku. Hanya padamu tempatku memohon...

Hopefully everything goes well. Moga diberi ketenangan dan keyakinan. And after the invterview nk pegi zai. insyaAllah ptg ni iftar dgn kwn2 hira' plak. till then. wallahua'lam...

Thursday, June 7, 2012

Tenanglah duhai hati...

Assalamualaikum...

Ya Allah...mengapa hati ini berdebar2 sejak mlm td. apakah ini petunjuk dari Mu. berikanlah hati ini ketenangan dalam menghadapi kehidupan ini.

Today, 8th june, I'm 25 years and 5 months old. Another 6 or 7 months before turning 26. getting nervous day-by-day. with no job and single, I cannot be calm. oh oh oh. what to do? hopefully segala usaha yg tlh dilakukan dipermudahkan. insyaAllah...just have to wait and wait again. 'kesempurnaan xkan dpt dicapai dgn tiada kesabaran' -forgot from where i read this.

Better go make dhuha prayer to calm myself down. wallahua'lam...


Tuesday, May 22, 2012

Back to Reality

Assalamualaikum...

Dah lame xupdate sejak brenti keje. so, what happened? Alhamdulillah, me and adik went to korea AGAIN on 28/4 - 5/5. then, abg and his family came from japan. dpt jumpe ikram, main2 dgn die. hehe. die dah pandai ckp sket2. kali ni pegi korea sbb nk shoping. byk gak hasil tangkapan. and this time it was spring. tp xdpt tgk cherry blossom sbb dh abis. wuwuwu...mcm biase, tempat yg kitorg pegi -itaewon, namdaemun, myeongdong, dongdaemun, pastu gi gak nami island, hanok village and lotte world (2nd time for me). but still, wpun ni dah kali ke-3 pegi sane, tetap rs blum puas. boleh x nk pegi lagi? aaa...nk tgk cherry blossom plak. autumn ke.

Ok, abis dah cite psl korea. and then comes the so-not-good part. back to msia means i become jobless again. plus still single some more. single and jobless...hmm... not a very good combi eh. ok, that means i have to continue to search again. Semoga Allah mudahkan urusanku. ameen...

And today, i got a good news from adik. she is accepted to jad. alhamdulillah...

Okla, gtg. my new 'baby' dah merengek. (found a poor kitty in the drain yesterday. wet and cold with no mommy. sob2...) till next time. wallahualam...


Wednesday, April 18, 2012

Counting days...

Assalamualaikum...

Sorry dear bloggie, I was too busy and tired to update. Plus, the internet connection was bengong2 for a week or so. It doesn't matter anymore. Bcs the most important thing is that I'm going to leave this sat. Can't wait to be free again. I'm too exhausted... I'm going to reward myself for the hard work that i've done. Well done maryam! You can survive more than 3 months so just another 3 days won't kill u right? Fighting! Smga Allah memberi kekuatan kpd diri ini. Ameen... =)

Wednesday, March 7, 2012

25 years and 2 months

Assalamualaikum,

Hari ni sy berusia 25 thn & 2 bln. which means i only have 9 months left. permudahkanlah segala urusan Ya Allah...

nk kluar rumah tp hujan. rumah tgh renovate kt bwh tp sy stay kt atas. bergegar2 kene gerudi. hmm...tggu org dtg amik tghri nanti. hope today will end well. insyaAllah ...

wasssalam...

Thursday, March 1, 2012

Goodbye February, welcome March!

Assalamualaikum,

Today is 1st of March. baru dpt gaji bulan feb. alhamdulillah. dah bulan 3. ade tinggal lg 10 bln. just wait and see. Allah knows best. =)

wallahua'alam...

Thursday, February 16, 2012

Tabahlah duhai hati...

Salam,

Hari ni off day lg. not being too good lately. i mean emotionally. getting annoyed by mr. stalker. hari2 kene kacau. keep ignoring him but he's so persistent. argh! just go away and leave me alone please! i need to avoid him everyday. it's tiring. maybe if i already have my mr. right then he won't disturb me anymore. but...mr. right...is nowhere to be seen right now. kdg2 rs tawar hati...huhu...
all i need to do is pray to Allah that he'll give me strength. bertahan! insyaAllah smpai bulan 4 je.

Jaa...

Sunday, February 5, 2012

Thank you..for understanding. =)

Assalamualaikum...


I thought today will be a hard day for me sbb kene keje ot dgn kesihatan yg kurg memuaskan. but thanks to Allah for making them understand the pain that i'm going through. byk jugak la keje yg tertangguh. dgn tray x berbasuh, roti blum simpan, sorry guys. tp nk buat mcm mana dh xlarat nk buat apa2. just want to be home and rest. disebabkan dorg memahami dan sanggup tolong habiskan keje2, so sy pun belanja la aiskrim mcd. to say thank you. hope u guys enjoyed it.

another thing is, mulai hari ini, sesiapa yg x ot, waktu balik adalah pukul 5 . yeay! Alhamdulillah. dpt blk awal. sbnrnye bos nk jimat kos. sale kurg memuaskan. so, terpaksa la buat mcm tu. tp bgusla tu. boleh blk awal, xdela rush sgt sbb nk solat lg. ade hikmahnya bos buat mcm tu. mungkin itu lah yg terbaik. =)

Wednesday, February 1, 2012

Alhamdulillah...

Assalamualaikum...

Alhamdulillah, hari ni dpt gaji bulan jan. =) duit zakat dh bg kat ummi, so nanti ummi setelkan. hajat nk bli phone baru disebabkan phone skrg pun dh bengong2. budget dlm rm300. nk yg ade wifi. nk gi usha2 la jumaat ni. sbb jumaat dpt cuti. nk pg byr bil, gi bank, pastu nk pegi memanjakan diri plak. ahaks! ;)

Monday, January 30, 2012

11 bulan mencari mr. right...

Assalamualaikum...

Tgk tajuk entri kali ni mesti org terkejut. haha. tp ade btulnye jugak. esok dah februari. bermakna ade 11 bulan lg thn 2012 dan ia jugak bermakna 11 bulan lg umur 25. dan...11 bulan lg masa yg ada utk mencari mr. right. -__-

so, how right is right? org mesti kate nk yg beriman kan. but how do u know iman seseorg? dgn pakaian? pakaian tu hanya luaran. boleh ditipu. kdg2 lain luar, lain dlm. biarlah yg biasa2, yg penting menjaga solat, akhlak baik, no smoking please! animal lover (esp cats), boleh get along well dgn family, can a good father to my children and can be my best friend. =) amboi, berangan...haha. ini bukan angan2 tp doa. harap2 Allah makbulkan. ameen...and I guess I have to be a good person first before I can meet one.

oh mr. right, where are you... I don't know how and where to find you so I pray that Allah will bring you to me one day... Sebenarnye Allah dah tentukan jodoh kite. Cuma kita xtahu bile dan siapa orgnya. Jadi, bersabarlah. InsyaAllah...hari itu akan tiba juga.

wasalam...

(p/s: nanti nk buat entri psl my dream wedding pulak lah. haha...)


Sunday, January 29, 2012

Wedding Maria



Salam,

Minggu ni mintak cuti ahad lg sbb ade wedding kwn skali lg. kali ni my ex-smkjp fren, Maria. she's my ex-classmate from form 1 smpaila form 5. satu geng jugak. kami ade 6 org satu geng. myself, maria, saleha, jue, huda and minah. td dptla jumpe jue dgn saleha. minah dgn huda xde, diorg pegi yg kat jengka punye. dpt jumpe kwn2 lain jugak - rose, umi, si kembar shima & shila. so, dh 2 org dlm geng ni yg kawen. soklan biase...who's next? just wait n see...hehe...

Anyways, congrats buat Maria & Fitri. Akhirnye kawen jugak korg ye. hehe. I'm happy for u guys. Smga dikurniakan kebahagiaan dunia & akhirat. ameen...

Sunday, January 22, 2012

Kenduri Paim


Salam,

Hari ni cuti. Pegi kenduri Paim & Aslam kat seksyen 32 td dgn jasmine and alia hamzah. sesat sampai ke Klang. dalam sejam gak la sesat. pastu patah balik ke shah alam tggu zue dgn shafnah kat sacc mall. sbb kakak shafnah tau camne nk g sane. smntara tgu diorg, singgah jap kedai beli roti sbb dh lapa. ape lagi, bising la diorg, jelez sbb sy cuti. haha. jumpe sal dgn husband die on da way nk jln ke rumah pengantin. sekali salah rumah daa....wat malu je. nsb baik xmsuk lg. patutla semacam je tgk. haha. rpenye silap lorong. lorong kecik je, xnmpk. jumpe aishah dgn dilah kat sane. juniors pun ade. bertolak kul 1, kul 3.30 baru smpai. pdhal dlm shah alam je. sesat punye pasal...haha.

anyways, tahniah buat sahabatku fahimah dan pasangannya aslam. semoga berbahagia hingga akhir hayat. all the best jugak dlm menghabiskan setahun lg kat adelaide. sronok dpt jumpe kwn2 adelaide semula. missing the good memories together. =) next week wedding maria plak. nk pegi dgn sape plak ni ek. hmm....

that's all for now. wasalam...

Friday, January 20, 2012

Sometimes it hurts...

Salam,

This week free sket sbb xyah OT dr hari selase smpai ahad. sbb ade org tu nk buat OT nk ganti cuti 4 hari. haha. and ahad ni cuti sbb nk g wedding paim. yeay!

Talking about wedding...supposedly it make you happy right? but somehow, I feel hurt inside. I am happy for my friends but sad at the same time. why? because they have found their other half but I'm still not.

Tibe2 emo plak. ni gara2 ternampak gamba one of my friends dgn pengantin ally iskandar & pasangannye farah lee. all i know is farah tu student korea and she is younger than me! Jelez! I know i shouldn't but it can't be helped. not because i like ally iskandar or anything, just because people are getting married like it is very easy. Ye, sy tau, jodoh pertemuan di tgn tuhan. Jawapannye pasti ada. satu hari nanti.... I just hope that Allah will give me strength.


And here I copied a friends' status on fb yg boleh beri sedikit ketenangan buat jiwa ini. Thanks friend. =)

Janganlah kamu yang sudah berkahwin mempersendakan pada mereka yang belum berkahwin .. Janganlah kamu berbangga sudah berkahwin kepada mereka yang belum berkahwin .. Kerana mereka yang belum berkahwin itu , ALLAH telah mengaturkan jodohnya yang baik-baik.. dan mereka yang belum berkahwin itu , ALLAH telah mencintainya dan bukan sebarangan orang yang boleh menyentuh hatinya.. ♥

( credited to Rahayu Md Amin)

- sob2. ternangis plak. tenanglah duhai hati... oyasuminasai.

Friday, January 13, 2012

A surprise visit from PM!


Salam,

Today was a .... day. I don't know how to say it but it was a once in lifetime opportunity. Our PM, yes, the prime minister came to visit the bakery I work at. gile lah, tibe2 sume org serbu kedai tu, dgn reporter2, pengawal2, polis etc... lampu2 camera yg menyakitkan mata. and I was talking with PM. Sbnrnye PM dtg sbb isu naik harga sewa? I don't really know about that baru keje xsmpai sebulan, manela tau bende tu sume. pastu PM tnye mcm mana bisnes? I said Alhamdulillah, but everybody laughed. huh? is it wrong? mcm xikhlas je.. kata PM. oh, i don't understand. did i say anything wrong? dahla lps tu terjumpe pakcik2 mane tah and they said 'eh, ni yg keje kat kedai kek td tu kan? knape x ckp? org dh bg pluang cakap xnk cakap... ' eh, ape ni? ckp ape plak ni? sy baru keje kat situ, sy xtau pape. tolong sy....aaa.... ade plak org rtm dtg interview, siap bwk cameraman, dgn mic lg. pastu ade 2 wartawan, sorg dr utusan, sorg dr mane tah, dtg blk kat kedai tu mintak name penuh sbb nk bubuh dlm paper. kot! seriously I don't want any of that. I just want to live a quiet life. but hey, it was a great experience though. kalu nk jumpe PM saje2 mmg xdptla. ni die sdri yg dtg. haa kan!
Anyways, I survived today. thank you Allah. wasalam. =)





Tuesday, January 10, 2012

Alkisah kedai roti...

Salam,

Hari ni cuti (dapat cuti) sbb org lain nk cuti gilir2 dr rabu smpai ahad. so, diorg suh sy cuti selasa. nk cuti sabtu xbleh sbb nanti xckup org. well, org dh bagi amik je la kan.

Sbnrnye dh 2 mggu keje kat kedai bakery tu. bleh dpt keje kat situ sbb tokey die org kmpg ummi. kalu ade ape2 hal sng sket nk mintak cuti ke. kalu keje dgn org lain mcm ssh sket. so, what did I do in these past 2 weeks? ok, mule2 kene buat sandwich. ade 4 jenis sandwich. pastu tlg isi2 inti cream puffs, tlg goreng2 donut. pastu celup donut dgn coklat and tabur choc rice. buat air, jaga cashier smbil tgk2 bhgn depan, sapu, mop, kemas2. lps tu up sket blaja buat swiss roll dgn chiffon cake. tgk resepi, timbang2, masuk mesin then campur perisa and pewarna, tuang dlm tray, bakar. pasni maybe blaja buat cream puffs plak. bende ni sbnrnye xdela susah sgt sbb penah je baking2 kat umah. so, adela basic sket2. I agree that experience is a good teacher. cuma yg lainnye buat dlm bigger scale and untuk dijual. kalu dlu buat sket2 and hodoh2 pun xpe sbb nk mkn sdri. tp yg ni xbleh la sbb nk bg customer mkn. kenela nmpk menarikkan.

Penat mmg penat. lagi2 kalu kene basuh tray yg bertimbun2. that is the most hateful part! xsuke! kalu setakat jaga cashier ok lg, xdela penat sgt. pastu serabut plak bile kene kejap buat keje kat blkg, kejap kene kluar balik bile ade customer. itu pun boleh thn lg. plg xtahan bile kene bebel. aduh...ni yg xbrp nk gemar ni. ade je yg xbtul. buat salah, xbuat pun salah. xpe2, smpai bln 4 je. bertahan!

Tp xdela sume xbest kat situ. the fun part is diorg suke ngarut2. asyik tersengih je duk kat situ. and I got a new nickname too! thay call me 'Ira'. sorry again? wahaha. ewww...geli2 gak mule2 tu. mcm mane la bleh jd ira. org ckp nazeera or zeera, last2 diorg pggl ira je. hahaha. klaka plak. oh ye, lagi satu dpt mkn free! mknla ape je yg nk dimkn. smpai xlalu dh tgk roti2 tu. air pun xpyh byr. cuma kalu nk mkn kenyang kenela beli sdri.

Org mesti pelik knp overseas grad mcm sy ni keje kat kedai roti je. yela, blaja penat2, ade degree in biotech plus hons in health sc tp kedai roti? why? is it wrong? keje ni halal ape. biasela, mulut org xbleh nk tutup. cakapla ape korg nk cakap. yg penting I know what I'm doing and not everything I do I have to tell evrybody. I do have plans and people don't know anything about it and I don't wish to tell them either. It's a secret. shhh....

Ok, dh mghrib. cau dlu. wsalam...

Sunday, January 8, 2012

8 Jan 2012

Alhamdulillah...

It's 8 january again and now i'm 25. So many people to be thankful for. but 1st, thank YOU Allah for giving me the opportunity to live in this world. Jazakillah ummi kerana melahirkn, jazakallah abi krna membesarkn & mendidik. Thank you jugak to family & friends yg wish/doakan sy.

Although today i'm working, but i'm happy because i don't have to work OT. yeay! mungkin sbb dah belanja diorg kfc kot. haha. tp mmg dh ade niat before ni nk blanje diorg. dan ni la time yg plg seswai. i'm happy to see them happy. =D

Tak mcm selalu, besday kali ni i'm alone. but i'm happy. sbb smlm dh jln2 kat kl dgn fmly. jumaat mlm hr tu tdo kt sane, ade sogo member sale. hehe. ade la shopping sket2. beli baju, sluar, beg. xde baju dgn sluar nk g keje. hari2 baju bau roti. dah la kalu ot blk kul 9 mlm. bile mase nk basuh baju. weekends pun keje. tp skrg dh ade msn basuh baru yg auto! so, kalu xde ot tu bleh la basuh baju.

So, what does it mean to be 25? Dah smkn tua! suku abad! waaa... or more seriously dah boleh kawen! eh, bukan boleh, tp KENE kawen. and therefore i wish that i will find my mr right this year. whoever you are, only Allah knows. plus, smga diri ini diberi kekuatan mental & fizikal utk trus bkerja kat kedai bakery itu. huhu... (smpai bln 4). and i hope i can get kerja yg solehah, yg terjaga ibadatnya, masa dgn family dan weekends off. semoga dgn bertambahnya usia akan menjadikan diri ini insan yg lebih baik insyaAllah... =)


Thanks for today! =D

Saturday, January 7, 2012

2012 and 25

Assalamualaikum...

Alhamdulillah, dah msuk 2012 & dah setahun ade kat msia. skrg ni bru msuk 2 mggu keje kat kedai bakery. so far bleh thn lg w/pn kdg2 rs tensyen. rs nk nangis pun ade. yela, kite ni baru je keje bbrp hari jgn la banding dgn org yg dh keje bbrp bulan/thn. mmgla diorg buat keje cepat. kene mrh tu xpyh ckpla. tp tgk la keadaan dlu. kite buat satu keje xabis lg dh suh buat keje lain. bkn nye nk tlg. huhu...saba je la. kang lari baru tau. haha.

Esok, 8/1/2012 genaplah usia 25 thn. dh msuk fasa bhya ni. sbb ape? sbb kene kawen tp xde calon lg. don't ask me when and who. coz I surely don't know the answer. tggulah Allah bgtau satu hari nanti. insyaAllah that day will come. =) Entri ni tulis hr ni sbb esok keje. mesti kene OT smpai mlm. wuwuwu...T_T. How I wish I can stay at home tomorrow. sigh...

Sempena thn baru ni I hope I can get married this year and get a good job. nk carik keje yg 5 days a week. xnk keje weekends. and hopefully our family trip will come true! can't wait for that day! XD

That's all for now. I'm tired already. wsalam...